RECORD OF AWAKENINGS

now i just stare into the sun and i see everything i've done...

A Nine Inch Nails lyric.

there is this idea of home...

it's become a life of accumulation...of understanding, of remembering...not a life of living...

much much time has passed...

there's nothing that this immediate world could ever offer me to make me stay...

you make me hard when I'm all soft inside

A Nine Inch Nails lyric.

i don't know who the fuck thought that allowing me to live this life would end well but they really were dead wrong...

i can't believe this is my fucking life. my fucking existence...

i don't wanna live in this coldness and misery anymore

the fact of the matter is that i was the one unfortunate enough to be Sol...

oooh god i wanna be dead so fucking bad already...

i miss ___

waking up to this nightmare every day...

it's like i know that i don't fucking belong in this world

i believe i can see the future because i repeat the same routine...

A Nine Inch Nails lyric.

i died a long long, time ago

A variation on a David Bowie lyric?

time is a funny, funny thing...

it feels like I'm alive in another world right now...

feels like a time portal is going to open up in my bedroom!